You know, people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.
I do not know about her, I just want to quit my job, but it is not possible. She offered to help me while I am doing my job, talk to me, strike up a conversation to me but I find it so hard to start up a conversation with her. A simple “Hi” would be hard for me too.
She smiles, every time she saw me, it makes me feel uncomfortable, like rather awkward, you know what I mean?
She strikes up a conversation with me today, while I am doing my stuff, I do not know but it kept going for 3 minutes. I do not know what to talk about, just wait for her to start up a topic, but she does not. Instead, she talks about the frozen fruit, near the freezer where I replenish the stuff. Okay, she is weird in a way, that eye contact I could not last long, cause I am too shy to look at her, you know. The usual me. Girls and me equal to anti social.
She kept talking, I responded. Try to keep the conversation going, but it did not end very well. I offered her sweet, but the stupidest thing happened. There is a tissues inside my uniform pocket, which also contain my sweet. My tissues is dirty, and I offered my sweet to her, like is it stupid? She saw it and like “No thanks, I'm good”. Guess, I should have thrown that tissue.
Well, it all ended,
“I guess I will see you later” And she responded too. “See you later too, Azmie.”
I want to get this right, I do not want to mix my work with a girl. A sorta crush is going around here, but I just want to do my job appropriately. I keep thinking to myself, I need to ignore, just do my job, that is it. She says something, I better respond. Just to be friendly.
It is hard for me. Now, my work life is going to be either suck or great.
Cheers people.
