I’m pretty sure she knows it too. The first time I saw her, I don’t remember what I thought of her. The second time I saw her, I immediately knew I liked her. She and her stupid ass awkward charm and overall laid-back attitude.

On a side note, I’ve never had a problem with eye contact. I look my friends and family and strangers in the eye whether or not I’m actually interacting with them or not. I’ve recently realized that I can’t look someone I romantically think of in the eyes.

You don’t even know how much I am kicking myself in the head mentally right now for typing this up. More than likely, nothing is going to sprout from this infatuation because along with my I-wait-for-the-girl-to-ask-me-out rule (maybe I’ll write about that one day), the fact she is kind of like my bestfriend, it is kind of unethical in a sense. I mean, I think she is supposed to be one of my ex bestfriend. Whether or not she is even remotely responsible for my relationship with M, the odds are always stacked against anything happening.

Note to myself: Guys that can ask a chick out deserve a lot of respect because that takes a lot of balls.

Would I want something to happen? Yeah. She is totally my type of girl. Awkward, smart, cute, and so completely unaware of how much game she has in my book. If she ever did ask me out, I might pass out or seriously embarrass myself with a shitload of perspiring and blushing.

I’m probably going to edit this before her Birthday and either still be infatuated with a general hopeless about the situation or recount some event that was a serious deal-breaker. God, please don’t let her be a smoker.

If she didn’t have a Tumblr, I’d not remember her. I am glad she is a grown up girl. And if Asri didn’t mention about her name in my book, I would have long forgotten about her. But the book that I have given to her, lies a million of secret about her.