HAHAHA!
Okay, moving on...
You know what really makes me sad? Is when I see people I want to be friends with/have been friends with have pictures of them together on Facebook. It makes me feel like I’m worthless, like I’m not good enough to be friends with them, not good enough to hang out with them. I don’t know if it’s clear or not THAT I’D DIE TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU, but I’ve certainly tried to show it.
I would ask you guys to chill, but then I’d feel responsible for making the plans on what we do and I never know what to do. And I’d be by myself too. I wish whenever these girls/guys were with each other, or just with another girls/guys, they could be like, “Hey, want to chill with Dora/Patrick?” “Yeah sure! Let’s call her/him!”. But no, that never happens. No one asks to to chill. I never ask anyone to chill, because when people are like “Oh, who are you with?” My response is always “No one”. And who would want to hang out with someone alone? Do I have to straight up say to you, “Can we please be friends, and hang out, and be best friends even? Am I not good enough for you? Why don’t you ever ask to hangout or text me? Do you even want to be friends with me?”
I feel so left out seeing all these people hanging out with so many people, and me, just here, on the outside looking in. I’m lonely and I wish I could go back to when I had a lot of friends, people liked me, people wanted to hang out with me, and when I loved my life.
I’ve learned a couple of things the past couple days. The people you don’t care to have in your life can sometimes have advantages. The people you want, you can never have, and may as well accept it. The people you have can be a drag but will most likely pick you up when you fall flat on your face.. But make the best of a bad situation and it can turn out very rewarding.
Keep your friends close, and enemies closer.
I just watched gossip girl, now you might understand what I mean.
