It's really hard to understand why I dream of her. This is surely unusual case for me. It's like, why of all sudden I must dream of her? I have millions of dream, a quarter of them only came true. Don't tell me this one will come true either. I don't really understand the human nature or perhaps the brain, who always imagining unpredictable things but somehow it came true.
Seriously speaking, I didn't want to hate her. I'm trying to save her from mixing with the wrong company but somehow I don't feel like to because its too late. There's a feeling of mine tells me that she have no real love in her, so why bother? Since she doesn't love her, why should I ever bother about her. Its her life, not mine. So here comes the complicated part, ditching her. That was a success. I don't believe myself that I actually do that! Hahaha. That's so traumatic man.
There's many minah/mat in my school keep looking at me in a weird way. So I'm unhappy with that. Currently my red profile is dirty, thanks to the one and only, Ms Adlin! But nevermind, she has been a wonderful physics teacher. Back to the topic! So, I'm different from everyone so stop comparing me with the Mat's. Yeah, I wear tight pants, so I'm a Mat? Fuck you if you gonna think of that, suck your own winky. Ok, I'm done.
Melly's has been a good girl lately, really. Its not a compliment but its a statement. HAHAHA. She's there whenever I need her, I'm there whenever she needs me. Vice-versa. We currently having a far distance relationship, that's kinda sad. She's really comfortable with my "behaviour". I really don't mind if there some other guys try to text her, tell me which guy wouldn't, after all she's hot! To be fair with her, I also text random girls (sometimes, I will use people phone) to fill my boredom with their nonsense sweet flirty messages, they always keep me occupied.
4 more days to 13 month of anniversary.
