Its time for me to do a proper update, a long one. But its for my sweetheart.
To Mellyana,
Mine story for you of a never ending love.
I was just 15 years old when I began to fall in love with you. I love to hang out with my friends, very good friends. But there was this particular friend that from the beginning we had a lot of chemistry. You became my bestfriend, my confident, and you was that shoulder that I needed to cry on. Time passed and I fell in love with you.
I never knew that everytime you cried on my shoulder or you told me of that special someone, it was really me. One day I couldn't take it no more and made the decision to confess my love to you knowing that I could lose our friendship. To my surprise you have the guts to tell me that you liked me too, apart from my jokes. I started to hang out with you, texting, chatting and even called you in the middle of midnight, just to accompany you.
The more you say don't love me, the more I insist of loving you so much. I gave in and fall in love with you head over heels. We were both happy and so much in love, teenagers love.
Destiny didn't wanted us together at that time because we keep quarelling for no reason. I even throw a chocolate bar you gave it to me. To my surprise again, you came back to apologize (I should be the one to apologize, not you). Yeah, we break up that point of time, the moment where I have a crush on someone, somebody from my freggin' school. I didn't want to keep my hopes up so prefered your friendship and lied to you. A friendship that was always true and 100% there.
Destiny again played his trick on us and I left you and went far away still loving you in the deep of my heart. I got no worries, because I couldn't control it. I was obsessed with you.
I behave like a perfect gentleman. I reply your text message, the person I loved so much. Throught the years I never stopped thinking about that night, where I bought you a cute cuddly teddy bear from our favourite hangout, Vivo City.
Up to date we continue to keep in touch as very unexpectable couples always keeping in mind that there is no one that can take away from our hearts this eternal love that one day we will be able to give each other. Maybe not in this lifetime but in another. Up to this days my heart longs for her to be back on my arms. I will alway's keep the faith that one day love will lead us back.
You are my world my everything and without you...I can't survive. I love being in love.. its the pain that goes with it that I detest. I love you Rina Mellyana and without you in my life, I'll just be a shell of what used to be, a guy deeply in love. My heart aches with every breath I take..like the song says "it only hurts when I breathe".
I love you my M.
