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    		Quotes: Get up before my time, go back to sleep again. Got nothing more to do than hope I dream of you. At least these dreams seem real.


    Saturday, April 4, 2009, 9:42 AM


    It was easier if I didn’t try to believe.

    Looking at her was a stupid plan, but I didn’t have any better ideas. I hoped that Yaya was as yet inexperienced minah, so that she wouldn’t see through my sure-to-be-pitiful attempts at flirting. I tried to make my smile alluring, wondering if I was laying it on too thick. She smiled back, though, looking allured. That's what I'm happy about. I felt silly, staring at her always.
    I do like her, that's the problem!

    I was aware of the time slipping away so quickly..

    About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Yaya was Zainalll cousin. Second, there was part of her and I didn’t know how potent that part might be. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably looking at her everytime I see her. Ohkay, whadthehell. Do I react badly every time I saw her? Saw her, I'm speechless but I did say "Hi". A moment of wordless communication passed between us. She realized that she knew I was keeping something from her. She realized that I wasn’t going to give anything away. Not now.

    It must be a hard thing, to be a guy; living in fear that the girl you liked would meet a boy she liked, but also having to worry if she didn’t. How ghastly it would be, I thought, shuddering, if Yaya had even the slightest inkling of exactly what I did like.

    Dammit, Azmie! Why are you blogging about her!

    Does anyone want to hear my next plan? Hehehhe.

    It maybe 3 minutes plus song but behind this song, there's a thousand meaning of it. This song sounds like whats happening on me now, like the couples (possibly long-term) relationship was teetering on a breakup. When the breakup happened and the girl asked him for a reason, he couldn't give her one because he really had none since he clearly didn't know what he wanted.

    Perhaps the guy was looking to see if he could find better than what he had (or he had a wondering eye for another girl) and he left her, only to realize too late that he had what he wanted all along.

    They may have gotten back together because she's willing to forgive him for what he did. The guy is flustered and afraid he will repeat the mistakes. He realizes he's completely ruined what they had and doesn't think things will get fixed(or rather, pieced back together). Even though she's willing to work with him, the guy doesn't even try to fix their relationship (out of fear) and leaves again.

    He then leaves a poorly written note for her. He knows well that she will see through whatever shoddy, dishonest reasons he gives her for leaving, but will not tell her the truth. He still leaves, fearing his mistakes, which in the long run will certainly come back to haunt him in the future.

    Thus, he is screaming out (figuratively and literally) his true feelings of love for this girl.

    Farewell, Mellyana. Don’t forget to breathe.

    Lupakan aku
    Jangan pernah kau harapkan cinta
    Yang indah dariku
    Lupakan aku
    Ku punya cinta lain yang tak bisa
    Untuk kutinggalkan..


    Chrisye feat Ungu - Cinta Yang Lain.