Behave. And then come back.
Its fair enough that I will not ever take a look at you. This maybe the phenomenon for me. I'll just want to erase the face of yours. I'm stop liking you already. Stop refering me as if that I like you.
2 months ago, our triangular relationship seemed impossible, three different kinds of heartbreak that could not be avoided. Now everything was in perfect balance. It seemed hideously ironic that the puzzle pieces would fit together just in time for all of them to be destroyed.
Came to school, with all sort of problems that would matter.
The person who died in my school, is the person who came late with me last month. Omg, I realised now. My condolences to her... May she rest in peace.
Firstly, Haziq kept repeating it, "Black, dia tengok kau. Betol black!". I would never take a look at her, never. He think I'm just kidding. Not even a step closer to her. Destroyer always a destroyer, you can't repent.
Secondly, Matt. Matt shouted my name infront of Farhana. Yes, infront, face to face. He really thinks I'm Farhana boyfriend which is not. Now, I'm in a big trouble. Crazy laaa. I only like Farhana in a way. -.-
Thridly, Khairani thinks I like her. Ok, I got all sort of major problem right now. I repeat once again, I do not like her. Stupid Azim. You telling a fake information. She kept looking at me when I was having my Food and Nutrition period and Mother Tongue class. Grgh.
Fourthly, I received an sms by Melly. She said she vomitted in her art class. Thats worries me ohkay. Her temperature was like 42.1 degree. Shes sick and I knew that since last night. I can't sleep yesterday night because she kept texting me. "Doctor, doctor, doctor" -.- If something helped even the odds… and then I shuddered, realizing I was willing to have a stranger die to protect her. I was horrified at myself, but not entirely able to deny it, either.
I had done it. Against the odds, I had been strong enough to survive Melly, to hold on to her until she was strong enough to live without me. Only you could be more important than what I wanted… what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I’ll never be strong enough to leave again. I have too many excuses to stay, thank heaven for that!
For this one night, could we try to forget everything besides just you and me? It seems like I can never get enough time like that. I need to be with you. Just you. You could kiss me, for example. I don’t mind if you want to use me to experiment.
I deleted the previous post.
Its life, move on.
It was sort of the pattern to my life. I’d never been strong enough to deal with the things outside my control, to revenge the ones who I hate or even outrun them. To avoid the pain. Always human and weak, the only thing I’d ever been able to do was keep going. Endure. Survive. It had been enough up to this point. It would have to be enough today. I would endure this until help came. I would not give up.
Ohh, I met Syahirah Rosman today. She gave me a good piece of information.
There were many things I wanted to say, some of them not nice at all, and others more disgustingly gooey and romantic than she probably dreamed I was capable of.
It’s possible to love more than one person at a time. I’ve seen it in action.
