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    Sunday, March 1, 2009, 12:17 PM
    WARNING: FULL OF WORDS & SENTENCES
    Afternoon Twilight's, It's the month of March already.

    Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever. I am perfectly happy being her friend, in fact I love it.

    I don't know which is worse, keeping your love for someone a secret or telling them and risk being rejected or loving someone knowing its going to cause you pain or being in pain because you can't love someone. Sometimes I look at you... and you seem to be looking back at me... but sometimes you look away... like you're afraid of what might happen if you look a second longer. Maybe Ariffin were right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.

    Before I met you I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason. Every time someone mentions your name my head turns towards them. It's like every time I hear it, I think of what we had, and all we could have had. It's not that we aren't meant to be together, I think that we're just not ready for forever. You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.

    I'd rather be your lover then your friend, but I'd rather be your friend then your nobody. I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me. After all this time you still have this amazing power to make me feel absolutely crazy each time I see you.

    People say whats the point in liking someone who doesn't like you back. They are right, there isn't a point. But you can't help who you like, it's not up to you. Your heart kinda just decides for you and there is no turning back once your heart makes up its mind. Sometimes you meet someone and before you know their name, before you know where they are from, you know that sometime in the future this person is going to mean something to you. I hate the way I could never hate you. No one can accuse you of falling in love with the wrong person if inside you know she is the one.

    I love her but I cannot show it, want her but she cannot know it, need her but I know it'll never be, if only she needed me. I look at her as a friend, then I realized I loved her. I used to think that if I loved you enough, you would realize it and love me back, but I can only love so much for so long. I wish you could hear all the words but I'm too afraid to say.

    I may hate myself last time but I'm gonna love you now. It's hard not to love someone when she's all you ever think about.

    -

    Again, I can't slept. Just woke up. I've been waking up early lately. Maybe my mind kept thinking of that thing. Last night I woke up at 3.56AM.. then 5.45AM.. and now, 7.50AM. Seriously I have not been sleeping very well. Just take a nap. I don't know what's bothering me right now. My eyes begging on me to sleep, but I can't. Anemesia? Lol. I need vitamin B-complex please.

    Ohh ya, today family meeting. Look serious thou. I'm probably can't online and this my update for today. I must at least update my blog. If anything, just digit me. Only 8 numbers. Even my family have meeting. Ok, I could feel the meeting is about me, lol. Nahh. No. I have no idea?

    Tomorrow, Monday. Freak, must wear tie. One bad thing about wearing tie is that they're stuffy. Can't breathe, its hard. I gurantee you if you eat with your tie on, your food won't get swallow. It will just stuck at your neck there. Hahaha! This incident happened to me when I was just a newbie, secondary 1. The collar of my school uniform was too tight and tighter when button it. Here's what gonna happen on Monday ;

    • National Anthem, Pledge & School song
    • First 5 period confirm boring
    • English period, written assignment, Practice Paper 2
    • Last 2 period, Maths. Ahhhh. Numbers, omfg.
    • Went home, if possible.
    • Slack at MacDonalds, sent Nadiah, if possible.
    • Slack at Petal Garden till 5.30PM
    You don't know what you mean to me, you don't have a clue, you can't tell by
    looking at me what I feel for you.


    I just can't figure it out.
    7 more days to my birthday. (;
    Not excited getting a year older.
    Sweet sixteen it is!
    Falls on Sunday.
    Wahhhhh.
    Perfect!


    My inbox message will me full that point of time. I know. Cause every year, my friends text me. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BIRTHDAY BOY!" Hehehehe. (; So sweet of them. Next year my birthday falls on Monday. Omg. Weekdays. Arghhh.

    Kay, thats for today. Seem my parents all dressed up for the meeting and I have not. :s